I guess basically this blog is where I can vent about my frustrations with my husband because when you vent to friends and family it damages true relationship with your SO and sometimes even the relationship you have with that person.
anyway, I am just so sick of the double standard in our relationship. If I ask you to do something simple like go inside a building and deposit a check and you act like it’s soooooo annoying because you have to go through a security checkpoint (it’s a federal building no cell phones no belt take off shoes empty pockets etc) when I’ve done waaay more annoying shit for you it pisses me the fuck off
I know this is petty BUT it really aggravates me when someone acts one way when you first get together then after two years all of sudden shut different – real life example:
beginning of relationship -when traveling we could stop to pee whenever no problem
now – it’s always either a complaint or delay -pisses me off I literally can’t wait til the next time we gotta go somewhere cuz imma pop off before we leave no fucking bitching about pee stops or you can go fucking alone or we can drive separately mf
After the pity party then comes the anger – you have no idea what it feels like to love someone who doesn’t love you back and how furious I get when I think about how I’m the one suffering FOR YOU. I mean why do I feel like u need to live up to my part of the bargain when you aren’t??? Why am I so damn noble – I’m not a fucking knight of the round table lol. I can’t wait til the day you realize how you fucked up because I really did love you. No I don’t love you the way I used to either because only an idiot continues to give their heart to someone who doesn’t reciprocate. Over time the neglect has an affect dumbass and you been neglecting me since nov 2018. You gon get yours tho motherfucker hope whoever that bitch is that you giving all your attn to is Or wS worth it because you lost me over it tho you don’t know it yet
I know you aren’t in love with me anymore – there is no passion in your kisses – you could care less about loving on me. I know you cheated on me with someone in 2018 and it started sometime around end of Sept or Nov – I don’t know who or why but that was when things began to change. I wish you had ended things I told you a million times I wanted to be with someone who shares my feelings – I know you care about me but you don’t love me anymore it’s obvious in how you treat me just like I told you this morning – you jump on ANYTHING I do wrong or stupid and rarely compliment me on anything. You never tell me I’m pretty anymore or sexy. I’m going to stay with you until you get going because I promised you I wouldn’t leave you down here w nothing and I won’t and then I’m leaving. I don’t know WHY you chose to do this with me instead of the person you really want whoever that is – I’m pretty sure it has to do w Shaye and that’s not right because she’s gonna grow up and choose someone that isn’t affectionate and doesn’t show her he loves he cuz that’s how you treat her mother
Well, what I mean is the end of my fairytale. I been feeling it for a while and this post I made to my FB that only he and I can see is related to one of a many in the past two years that makes me feel this way.
“When your husband prefers to sit next to the dog 🤔 I guess that’s pretty clear where you stand huh- and yeah just because you probly won’t notice because you never look at my shit – you are the only person that can see this MaybeSTBXH. I mean really who doesn’t have their dog move for their wife – really like wtaf “